The way this opportunity unfolded, and everything about it's first week, is providence. I imagine the whole of the talk show experience will be directed in the same way. I'm eager to see what this chapter of the journey reveals, creates, and pays forward; offering me a chance to increase the volume of the voice I've been given and a new way of reconditioning perspective to increase health and happiness!
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what I had planned in anticipation of a day long celebration today (story for another time) I did get
to venture out for a few minutes. In the time I did,
here's the 'surprise birthday gift I got to share with a special lady, courtesy of Heaven!
... Rare special occasions lead me to reflect on this sweet memory my
daughter Jonnae created for me. It was one of our last ventures out
together. She was shopping for clothes, motivated to
look like something other than a cancer patient (having worn pajamas
for comfort, even out in public, for months.) We were at the mall and she
was giddy and happy. While there she wanted a pepperoni soft pretzel
and coke. Being in my overly obsessive healthy state during that time, I
would not indulge in a 'treat' with her, even though she begged. We were sitting at
the table as she enjoyed her food and drink alone when she said, "If I could do
this every day, I would!" I didn't know if she meant shop at the mall,
eat soft pretzels, or what, so I said, "What's that babe?" She surprised
me with the sweetest gift when she replied, "Spend the day with you." My young adult children all have their own lives to live these days. Like most their age, they really don't care about spending much time with me. So I
decided today, I'd go by the mall and sit at our table to
enjoy a soft pretzel and coke with my girl. I didn't with her that day, but I
sometimes do with her now (truly, this feels like a visit with her more
than a stop at her gravesite.) The lady serving me at the pretzel counter
seemed disconnected, lonely or unhappy. As she was preparing my order, I
was a bit conflicted...do I share this special story with
her or not? Will she misinterpret and think me sad?...not really care? Will she receive the
'shift' with awareness and gratitude I hope to offer? What if this is
the only shot at her having something to smile about today? So at the
last moment, before I walked away, I said..."I hesitate to share this,
for I'm not sure it will have the result that is my hope. I told her the
story, and as happens more times than I can recall or count, this is
what she said. "There's a reason you told me. My husband died of
leukemia and just after my son turned 15 he was diagnosed with leukemia
also. He's a 3 year survivor." I think I even squealed. Can you feel
your husband and Jonnae doing a happy dance at this shared moment? She
smiled a huge smile and asked if she could come around and give me a
hug. I practically skipped to my special table and smiled all the way
through my 'treat' courtesy of God and all that's wrapped in sweet
love....(that balloon image at top of this blog might as well have been attached, :)
I imagine this is only the beginning of the divine gifts that will result and be shared this week. I'd love to have you tune in, see if my inclination is right, and share in the wealth of abundant hope, encouragement, inspiration and ofcourse FUN! Comment on my blog, on FB, through email. I'm always blessed to hear from you and know you're enjoying this journey with me! This is an experience of sharing! Thanks for being a part of it, for it would not be possible to share, if you weren't on it with me :D
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